Ohhh to be home for a day.

I got back home Jan 9th, 2009. It was the worst day of my life, possibly. I almost missed my flight from San Francisco to Denver. Long story. I don't want to talk about it.

Classes started the 12th. I'm content right now. I'm just so lazy I don't want to study. :( That'll have to change. A kid named Shane sits next to me in Psych. Um, he looks like my type of friend. Good music taste, and kind of quiet. I wonder if I should talk to him.

I've gained weight. Hating myself for that. The closest gym around here is in Pinellas Park. What the fuck. Hate you mom for moving to Clearwater from St.Pete 3years ago. But I don't really hate you, but I'm thinking about moving back. Maybe next year with Brittany, and we'll get a apt. or something. I dunno yet. I told my mother, but she freaked out. I'm going to be 19 in August. Come on, it's time to move out.

I saw The Sleeping for the first time in 3 years Wednesday. I have waited so long to see them. Last time they came, I missed it. The show was so fucking dead. Funeral For a Friend, I'll give it to them, they really tried. The crowd sucked so bad. But I fell in love.

More like fell in infatuation. Shit. I like TJ so much. Um, hi 8 years my senior. Fuck. Can we stop doing eye contact 24/7. Even when your girlfriend is standing there? Ugh, I dunno. I just feel strong feelings towards a total stranger.

Back to work, back to school, back to having a normal life. It's like 45 degrees today. Great, I come home to 45 degrees and I escaped 40 degree weather. Joy!

10:49 PM. I am still Jet Lagged

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This girl was staying with my sister this past week. About six more people stayed at her apartment. It was really irritating/annoying because I felt like all my private space was invaded. Well, her name was Shannon. Shannon is 26 years old, lives in Gainseville and still attends UF. I'm not quite sure why she's been in school this long. I always forget what her major is. I guess telecom.

Shannon seemed like a sweet girl, I guess I feel kind of bad about giving her some of the shit I did. Shannon has IBS disease. I mean, she's just your average girl. Shannon is obsessed with pop culture. I literally wanted to shoot myself in the head when she told me she has been anorexic and tried to make herself look like Britney Spears all the damn time. She's also told me that she wants to move out to LA and '' make it big out here. '' I don't really understand people. I guess Shannon is just your average american girl, stuck in a fifteen year old girl's body. My thoughts are with her. I should really stop pitying people.

Wen is an asian man who is 29 years old, he has been in the military and likes to wake up at 6 in the morning and get everyone up and ready for the day!!!! Wen and I had our bad times. I can truly say I pretty much hate this kid. Let's not talk about politics/religion or the government, he would seem like a cool guy. Too bad he's a pervert and everything he says he thinks is funny, hilarious and also he's always right. Not to mention he broke my sister's trunk, had her pay for the whole hotel stay there, and bitched at me on our way to San Diego. Mind you, I bitched right back, and told him I'd smash his head in the fucking windsheild if he doesn't shut the hell up or get his finger out my motherfucking face.

Magda (I doubt I spelled that correctly) is a 24 year old girl who looks like she is twelve. I didn't really get to communicate with her, hence she left Christmas day. Magda has really small breasts. She went to Victoria's Secret and spent 60$ on a bra that sticks to her breasts and make them appear larger. I feel really bad for her. Did I mention she has a boyfriend? Yeah...

Well, I've got one thing to say. L.A. is definitely over-rated. It was nice. That's about it. It's nothing special. I don't see why people want to move out here. It's a town, with houses, buildings, cars, roads, people, shops, everything that's in any other town. I miss Florida so much.


Here I am in Walnut Creek. I plan on wasting my entire life away for the next 10days. I plan on eating all the food in the house, gaining about 50lb, showering, being online and sleeping all damn day. My vacation has been ruined. I am over hanging out with 30 year old people who want to get sushi every 35 minutes. I am over being accused of everything bad that has happened, and I have turned into bitch mode for the past four days. I plan on staying in bitch mode until I am at San Francisco International Airport and on my way back home.

I need to appreciate the things I do have in my life. The people I talk to daily back home, where I stay and what I am doing with my life.

Florida, don't sink, because if you do, we'll all have to move to California, and that's something I am not looking forward to.

It's here

I leave in less than twelve hours.

Write a blog when I come back? Maybe sooner? Maybe later? Who knows.

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Well, what's there to say.
Three days of exams and I am done with my first semester of college! This semester went by so fast. By the end of May I will be done with my first year of college. Is that crazy or what?!

I haven't blogged in a while so I feel like I have a lot of catching up to do. Finals next week. Stressing math so so so bad. Today was the last day of ethics class. That class was just a weird experience for me, so I'm glad it's over.

I lost 20lb in '08. By the end of '09, I plan on losing another 20. I got really sick Wednesday and had to leave work early. Eeek, it was a bad day.

Leaving for California on the 22nd. I guess I have an official ride to the airport. (Thank God!) I'm so stoked! My sister has a whole road trip planned out for us.
I was going to go to Soma in San Diego but I guess no good shows this month :(

I'm debating on getting my septum pierced in Cali or not. I know I'll be for sure jobless once I come back to Florida. I really want it though.

Which reminds me, Vicky totally myspaced me last night. How weird! I haven't talked to her in months and didn't plan on doing so. She said she missed us being friends. Yeah well, I miss being a kid, can't go back to the past.

I guess that's it for today.

Oh., P.S. Totally got this new cute hat/barret today. It's way cute.

P.S.S. Happy Birthday TMDJR

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I feel like I haven't slept in days. I need a doctor.

Doctor's are sooo over-rated. I think I am bipolar. What are we all doing here? Don't we all have some cool trendy problem nowadays anyway?

No, sometimes I wake up wanting to commit suicide. I turn my day around and become hyper as fuck.

I have mood swings up the fucking ass.

Seems like I have not slept in days. What happens when you die?

Shit.

You know that part in Girl, Interrupted where Lisa gives Daisy laxatives in exchange for valium and goes " You know what I think Daisy, I think you want to poop, because you haven't in days. "

Ugh.

I feel like crap right now. Not that I can crap right now anyways. Fuck. I've been pretty up and down these past few nights since I'm staying up all night and not doing 5 papers that are all due next week. Exciting.

Fuckfuckfuckfuck. I need to get my shit together. I'm just so excited about going to Cali I want to block out the rest of the month and beginning of Dec.

Holy shit.

I reallyreallyreallyreally need to get tested and see if I am bipolar. I have mood swings 24/7. And no, it's not because I'm on my period. Actually, last month I was late, weird.

Uhhhhhh.

This whole school thing is taking a fucking toll on me.

Something like a review.

The drummer for one of my favorite bands is always kind of mean when I meet him. I've seen him with his first band and of course his side project The Almost. He's from my hometown, and I see him everywhere. Just for shit's and giggles I always ask to have a picture taken with him. He's never really pleased about it but I mean, he's a pretty big influence in the hardcore scene so I see him as a really talented young man. People have different perspectives of other people but I guess he just got fed up with me asking for pictures all the time. I really find it amusing because you chose to be in two bands so, tough shit. (: He's still one of my favorites though.

The Devil Wears Prada killed it last night. I saw them at warped 08 this year, and definitely stole the show. Against Me! was great at warped too, one of my favorites as well, but Devil wears prada definitely stole the show. They were amazing last night. They duct taped their keyboardist to the keyboard. Take that Christopher Lent! haha, just kidding. I love Jeremy. He's the sweetest thing! He's gorgeous and can siiiiiiiing, oh did I mention headbang as well? Ha.

Saosin, been listening to them for a few years now. I've had so many chances to see them. Never really had the guts to because I was always busy doing something else. Well, Saosin was a part of this tour and I am really glad they were! Cove talked to me in the crowd and called me a sweetheart. I think that's the cutest thing, plus he handed me two water bottles (: Saosin was really really good last night. They're such amazing talented nice guys. Cove is super crazy and all over the place I just wanted to pinch his cheeks! I love that he can scream and sing his ass off as well! Saosin, great show last night, thank you.

The main part, the reason I left speech class early yesterday, probably my second favorite in the world, was last night. Underoath put on a great show. I've met underOATH last year, I've seen Aaron everywhere, and I always have the hardest time meeting Spencer. Spencer is such a huge inspiration to me. He has the most energy I've seen in a person performing. He's an amazing songwriter. So what if I'm not Christian, I don't care. We are all HUMAN BEINGS, we all deserve to love one another for being different and unique and not about our religious differences and political differences. The show last night was great. Not so many bruises, which I'm very happy about. Spencer jumped into the crowd and he was pretty much on top of my head. Sounds weird, but I was looking up at him screaming my head off. Spencer, thank you for great great energy, and the rest of the band, thank you for everything guys. You are truly a great great band. I am really glad and very very happy that you all played some old songs, because yes, I do have the new album but, I can relate to a lot in Chasing Safety and Define the great Line. It sounds a little different, the new album if you will, it just well, sometimes doesn't suit me. I have to be in the mood for it. But great work over-all.

I think Timmy's the nicest person ever! And he has some great teeth. His teeth are VERY white, and I just love his beard, and he is always thinking positive, even when fans sneak backstage to say hi to him and meet him. (: Timmy is great.

So, overall, Aaron just isn't the interacting part I guess. He just likes to be left alone and play his shows. Totally cool, I understand that. Can you REALLY handle being in two bands?

We'll see in a couple of years.