Shit.

You know that part in Girl, Interrupted where Lisa gives Daisy laxatives in exchange for valium and goes " You know what I think Daisy, I think you want to poop, because you haven't in days. "

Ugh.

I feel like crap right now. Not that I can crap right now anyways. Fuck. I've been pretty up and down these past few nights since I'm staying up all night and not doing 5 papers that are all due next week. Exciting.

Fuckfuckfuckfuck. I need to get my shit together. I'm just so excited about going to Cali I want to block out the rest of the month and beginning of Dec.

Holy shit.

I reallyreallyreallyreally need to get tested and see if I am bipolar. I have mood swings 24/7. And no, it's not because I'm on my period. Actually, last month I was late, weird.

Uhhhhhh.

This whole school thing is taking a fucking toll on me.

Something like a review.

The drummer for one of my favorite bands is always kind of mean when I meet him. I've seen him with his first band and of course his side project The Almost. He's from my hometown, and I see him everywhere. Just for shit's and giggles I always ask to have a picture taken with him. He's never really pleased about it but I mean, he's a pretty big influence in the hardcore scene so I see him as a really talented young man. People have different perspectives of other people but I guess he just got fed up with me asking for pictures all the time. I really find it amusing because you chose to be in two bands so, tough shit. (: He's still one of my favorites though.

The Devil Wears Prada killed it last night. I saw them at warped 08 this year, and definitely stole the show. Against Me! was great at warped too, one of my favorites as well, but Devil wears prada definitely stole the show. They were amazing last night. They duct taped their keyboardist to the keyboard. Take that Christopher Lent! haha, just kidding. I love Jeremy. He's the sweetest thing! He's gorgeous and can siiiiiiiing, oh did I mention headbang as well? Ha.

Saosin, been listening to them for a few years now. I've had so many chances to see them. Never really had the guts to because I was always busy doing something else. Well, Saosin was a part of this tour and I am really glad they were! Cove talked to me in the crowd and called me a sweetheart. I think that's the cutest thing, plus he handed me two water bottles (: Saosin was really really good last night. They're such amazing talented nice guys. Cove is super crazy and all over the place I just wanted to pinch his cheeks! I love that he can scream and sing his ass off as well! Saosin, great show last night, thank you.

The main part, the reason I left speech class early yesterday, probably my second favorite in the world, was last night. Underoath put on a great show. I've met underOATH last year, I've seen Aaron everywhere, and I always have the hardest time meeting Spencer. Spencer is such a huge inspiration to me. He has the most energy I've seen in a person performing. He's an amazing songwriter. So what if I'm not Christian, I don't care. We are all HUMAN BEINGS, we all deserve to love one another for being different and unique and not about our religious differences and political differences. The show last night was great. Not so many bruises, which I'm very happy about. Spencer jumped into the crowd and he was pretty much on top of my head. Sounds weird, but I was looking up at him screaming my head off. Spencer, thank you for great great energy, and the rest of the band, thank you for everything guys. You are truly a great great band. I am really glad and very very happy that you all played some old songs, because yes, I do have the new album but, I can relate to a lot in Chasing Safety and Define the great Line. It sounds a little different, the new album if you will, it just well, sometimes doesn't suit me. I have to be in the mood for it. But great work over-all.

I think Timmy's the nicest person ever! And he has some great teeth. His teeth are VERY white, and I just love his beard, and he is always thinking positive, even when fans sneak backstage to say hi to him and meet him. (: Timmy is great.

So, overall, Aaron just isn't the interacting part I guess. He just likes to be left alone and play his shows. Totally cool, I understand that. Can you REALLY handle being in two bands?

We'll see in a couple of years.

I totally sold out.

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Math test = 62%
Ouch.
Please please please let me pass this course. All my other classes are A's & B's.
I'm looking at a low D for a final grade now, which is not considered passing.

Some very exciting news.

So I'll blog just for a bit before I head out to work. Yesterday was an amazing day. Well, it didn't start out that great. I had a math test which I most likely got AT LEAST a D on. (I'm hoping a low C) but anyway, then I headed out to Speech class and got an A on the quiz there. That made me very happy.

I didn't do much yesterday. Well, I felt productive though, I did all my Ethics hwk and I just sat on my ass for the rest of the day and took a nap around 4 and woke up around 8. Sat more on my ass.. And then

I was surfin the world wide web, and Arthur from b182.com posts a post that I thought my eyes would never see.

I thought it was a joke

" Tom, Mark and Travis are on speaking terms again. " Exclaimed Arthur.

I almost cried.

I checked himynameismark.com and yes, it was true. The three founding members of blink-182 are on speaking terms. Some of you may laugh, but this band made me who I am. This band is who I am today.
I grew up listening to this band. And to know that for four years they avoided each other just breaks my heart. After the plane crash for Travis, I guess Tom realized how short life really is.
A blink-182 reunion? Who knows? Hopefully in the future....but that's all I ask, one tour, and come back.
I know they will... I just know they will...

I am going to California this winter to hang out with my sister for New Year's and whatnot. I am so excited. I haven't been on vacation in four years and I think I deserve it...
L.A., San Diego, San Francisco and Walnut Creek. I am really really excited to be going. I will be gone for two weeks! Maybe I'll run into familiar faces (:

As for right now, I'm gonna be heading out.

I'm still so addicted to the new BMTH record. It is just pure amazing art. And the new Tom Gabel solo stuff.. pure art I tell ya'

Nov. Is Suicide Season..

I am trying so hard to stay healthier. I have had self-image issues FOR YEARS. Honestly, and now that I've been a vegetarian for almost a year now, I feel so much better. Yet, I feel so much worse. I've gone from taking laxatives daily to lose weight to not eating in days. But I am getting so much better. I'm actually eating a lot of fruit and watching how much I eat daily and not crossing a 600 calorie diet. 600 isn't that bad, is it? I know you're suppose to get like 1,500 a day but, whatever. That's a lot of calories.

So, I've started walking 40 min walks around my neighborhood. Honestly, if you do it daily, you'll feel so much better. I only drink water, which cuts down to 50,000 calories a YEAR by only drinking water daily and NOT soda. Not that I drink soda anyway. I mean, I get a craving once in a blue moon, but that's it. NEVER On a daily basis.

Well, the main point of this blog is well, I dunno, I guess I just love my walks. Random, I know but I love my alone time.
As much as I love being around people sometimes, I really just do love my alone time.

Take tonight for an example; there was a bonfire, we were all hanging out, we had laughter, played funny games and just all got along. Nothing wrong with that but I love my alone time. I love getting up off my butt from being on the computer all day and walking, and looking at all the different things around you, in your neighborhood, bumper stickers, everything.

I have this amazing lake behind my condo complex and it's probably the most beautiful thing ever, minus the plastic chair someone threw in it. Erika & I used to hang out there all the time, and we'd have good conversation before she became a cunt.

I do not miss her at all.

But I miss that lake. It's weird. I walk by it everyday, and I just stand on the hill and look at the lake, I walk down the steps and walk back up to stretch my muscles but, I never sit there anymore and lay on the hill in the grass and blast my music.
I kind of miss that.

Well, I hope everyone is staying healthy, and I'm at least trying to.

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BMTH...& other interesting facts...

Okay, the BMTH show was AMAZINGLY SICK
NO SERIOUSLY, I'm starting to get fucking sick. Like I feel a flu coming on.

On the other hand, they were SO GOOD. Literally, best band I've seen preform live in a looooooonggg time. & that says a lot, I go to a lot of shows.

What else?
Yes, how about the band NOT coming out afterwards and saying hi to their fans. Yes, it's true OLI SYKES DID NOT COME OUT AFTER THE SHOW. THE ONLY THING HE DID WAS RUN OFF STAGE AFTER THE LAST SONG WAS DONE AND RAN TO HIS BUS AND TOOK A SHOWER, PLAYED VIDEO GAMES AND WENT TO SLEEP.

How sad.
How disappointing. This band is so dear dear dearrr to meeee. And this is what happens.
There was a fairly large crowd of people outside yes, I'll admit, but after TWO hours of waiting, everyone left and it was down to me and this girl.

Their crew is horrible. Some guy even attempted to call me a ''groupie'' bitch ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?
IM THE FARTHEST THING FROM A FUCKING GROUPIE

1. no i do not want to suck your fucking dick
2. no i do not want to see what your tour bus looks like
3. no i do not want to get high with you and have sexual intercourse cause YOU PROBABLY HAVE AIDS

and 4, yes I only wanted to take a fucking picture with OLI SYKES.
NO I WAS NOT A 14 YEAR OLD SCENE GIRL WITH SHITTY EXTENSIONS HAVING A FUCKING ORGASM WHEN HE CAME ON STAGE.

NO i was NOT TRYING to get in his fucking pants. I CAN CARE LESS who he fucks. He probably has chlamydia by now.

Every show I've ever been to, I've always had success at meeting the band I came to see.
WHY DO I GO TO SHOWS?
Because i respect people enough for the MUSIC THEY MAKE

NOT HOW MUCH FUCKING HAIR/MAKEUP/TATTOOS THEY HAVE!
I think it's pretty shitty that all these 15 year old scene bitches want to act like they fucking know something when really, THEY'RE THE ONES THAT DROVE OLI AWAY AND NOT WANTING TO COME OUT AND COMMUNICATE WITH REAL FANS.
I'M SORRY I DON'T WANT TO S HIS D. BUT I HAVE WAY MORE PRIDE THAN THAT.

I'm sorry I'm the only person on this goddamn earth that enjoys MUSIC for MUSIC, and not the fucking look of it.

I'm done ranting.

Random Thoughts

Arghhh I feel like Ed Norton in Fight Club where he struggles with insomnia like a crazy maniac and never sleeps. It's 2:09 am and I'm sitting here, whilst I have a huge ethics test in about 7 hours. I haven't slept an 8hour sleep in so long. I kind of miss it. I feel like I'm always in a dream, like I'm in a never ending moving dream. It really is crazy.

I hate procrastinating so much. I do it so much too though. Argh. I need sleeping pills or just healthy natural sleep. I doubt there's anything wrong with me with my sleeping problem, like a serious issue but I dunno, I need some kind of alternative to help me sleep.

Ideas?

Okay, so I did register for classes.
Not taking photography. I went to ratemyprofessors.com and I looked up all the professors I'm taking next semester. Let me tell you, some had HORRIBLE remarks so of course, I only chose the best ones. I heard Morelli-White is really good for Comp 2 so I took her. And she dances when your phone goes off, [only if it's a good song O_o] yeah, I'm excited.
I fucking hate working with Tyler. Really, working with an ex. Hahahaha. Was that even CONSIDERED an ex?
Doubt it.

To a new point. Mid term was due this Friday. Kind of BSed it but I dunno, I think I'm going to be okay.
Have a lesbian in my class, got paired up with her today. I didn't quite catch if she HATED or loved Jeffree Star.
Meeting JSTAR last week was intense. He's so fucking intimidating, but I wasn't all over him cause well, he probably has aids. Hahaha, jk!


Blaaaaaaaaah. Missin Ricky
Love you.
<3.

Good night, good morning.

MR.PRESIDENT...

Can you hear me!?


MR. BARACK OBAMA.
THE FIRST BLACK PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA


YES WE CAN!!!!

Thank you, thank you thank you thank you thank you.

Can I even stress how important this is?

Today is a very important day. Do you want to be a part of change? This will go down in history. For the last eight years we have struggled financially wise, ok, some of us have and we have seen a lot of horrible things happen. We have seen people's homes being taken away because they can't afford to pay the mortgage and more lay-offs than ever. We really need to be heard. Please vote today and make a difference. Make a difference in your life and in mine and in the people around you.

We are in a pointless war, a war that shouldn't even exist! We are in multiple wars, and all because our Mr.President said it was okay. It is not okay. Since when is it okay for people to kill other people?

Not religious, but think about it. This war is pointless, and all it is, is so Bush can go down in history. Please be a part of a change today. I don't care if you're so busy, take a few hours out of your day and vote, please do so.
We need change.

Second Semester

Second semester class registration starts this Wednesday. I am DEFINITELY registering for classes earlier this time! Hence, last time I had trouble picking the classes I liked and therefore thought would get stuck with sucky instructors. Not true. This semester was pretty busy for me. Five classes. Almost done! I am really excited. Next semester schedule would include;

Comp 2
Math
Psychology
American History
Photography
(:

I really need to take Humanities. I wanted to be a little more flexible and have fun with my classes. So I choose something that I would actually love going to class for.

After this semester, I have one more year left and I move out to Tampa for USF!
I am so excited :D ! I mean, college can take it's toll on you. With working, social life, AND classes, and a bunch of homework, you barely have time for anything!
I really love my speech class. My instructor makes everything so comfortable and not nerve wrecking.

I started using xanga again
xanga.com/senjaterror
But I decided I like this site better, so yeah, I dunno yet.
I can't think
I'll blog later.